Loudness Forever

Connor sat in the corner of the room, his chair faced the wall and his eyes faced the floor. His lungs were full to bursting but he kept inhaling. One, Two, Three - he counted the steps as it crept across the room and closer to him. His eyes opened wide, and he smiled painfully.

It wrapped it arms around his neck, and leaned into him, seeing what he felt and stealing it away - it laughed with him, and cried with him, knew everything he wouldn't tell anyone, and would keep it all a secret. It spun around Connor's chair, and held up his head, looking into him it pulled the colours from his eyes and set them on the floor where they rolled away like marbles.

The colours stayed in Connor's head with the images they are attached to - they swam through a sea of hate, of betrayal of pain and of love, all wrapped into one and set in a spiral around his head. The colours jumped from image to image, from one still of his memory to another as he recalled them. Pictures and sound, the vibration of objects around him formed the audio track, and light bouncing chaotically off of those same objects formed the visual, a cacophony of shit that was all his own, his memories, his images and words and nobody could take those away, at the very least. As he thought, tears streamed down his face, and it drank them feverishly.

Feeling his pain, it stretched it's arm across the floor and grabbed up the colours. It offered them back to him, but he laughed. Angry, it forced them into his heart through his chest, and became entwined in his spine. Connor's memories began to run together, and light burst from his mouth, the room vibrated and the portraits on the wall fell, crashed, re-assembled and turned to steam. The window grew bigger, like an ulcer, and his stomach inflated. Connor's eyes turned into strings and they vibrated back and forth, faster and faster, while colours poured from them in a stream like water. The floorboards were pulled towards the ceilings and stuck like magnets.

It took to the dark, back to shadows, and ran back to it's origin-terrified.

The room pulsed, collapsed, expanded, and was blinked from the world.

Connor smiled, and his eyes settled at rest, caesura, and then loudness forever.